ok..r u staying tune? xP

alrite-dy..i'm back..

hehe..told ciu to stay tune didn't i? xP
is 11:18am now..Hey!i'm not a pig that sleep though the whole morning..
i'm a early Bird..hehehe..
i think i'm still abit kuku in the head from wat happened last nite..
owhwell.. :)
is so unhealthy of me rite?only slept for a few hours..
but this time i have a few good reason to wake up so early..
1# i need to get my charger from June house!!
2# DUH i cant slp!!tmr is a scary freaky creepy day!!
3# i need exercise!!like now!!u know..a few people told me i got fatter..T.T
i tell u..i was the worst of times!!so yes!!i need good exercise n healthy food
for every single bit i take everyday!!
*kick the junk food n punch it hard 'stupid junk food*==
*spoil my day je*

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conversation with mum a min ago..
mum : gal..help me check this website out would u?
me : *reading*WWW.Singapore garden hotel.com
mum : take a look at the promotion..izzit still on?
me : *checking*why?r we going on a vacation or something?
mum : yup..Singapore..
me : o really?*but skol is about to reopen very soon,wat a delay trip to go to*
with who?
mum : only our family..
me : wat?== that is so gonna b bored..i'll rather stay home..seriously..
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hmm..Singapore huh?maybe it will be just another slacking trip for me..
o yea!!i'll bring my 'little black dress' babies along to accompany me.. :)
yea that's a good idea..
o n the comments on the net about the Garden Hotel..
is a mess..so maybe i'll be camping at 'Royal Plaza'..
i'm sure it will b so much better.. :)
owhwell..i'm out of the topic again..
moving on..

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well,i don have much pic from camp..
most i took is in Sophia DSLR..
n plus is camp!!not much time for pic.. :)
i don really like this one tho..

love this one!! :)

hehe..i love chocolate.. :)

but is fattening..T.T

Sargent Bobo a.k.a group leader.. :)

yes..the pic said it..

MiniBeanie the bean bag.. :)

on my way back home..
n i think i spot another heart shape just beside the street light..

i ♥ nature.. :)

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is just me nature n u.. :)

from the first day u stop breathing at the atmosphere..
the sky seem so diff?
it seem like as if u were looking down..
watching us.. :)

is beautiful.. :)
don ciu think?the cloud seem to be working with the sun..
each time i look up n think of u..

i went to visit u one last time on yr actual funeral..
just to see yr face one last time..n remember it in my heart for the rest of my life..
don worry..u still look really beautiful to me.. :)
inside n out..

i promise myself to be strong..
n i know clearly to myself that crying isn't gonna change anything..
so i make myself another promise to not cry on yr funeral..
i don wanna let u see the weak side of me but only the strong..
i'll b strong..n i'll take care of myself..
so don ciu worry.. ^^
but i'm sure missing u hack of alot..
people say u left..but to me..u didn't..
u're still here..in my heart..^^
forever n always perhaps?
yes forever n always..
:)

i

miss

u

..

:)

i


♥


u


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:)


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the LOL DER ABC Camp..n loadssss moreeeee.. :)

i'm so sry!!wat i meant on my post before..my yesterday was today actually.. :P
forgive me? :) i noe u would..ok..moving on..^^

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youth camp 2009.. :)

i came back from camp for like almost a month n i haven upload a single thing abit it..
ok this is what u need to know..
the camp was erm,erm,erm,
how can i say it?
AWESOME!! n it was the boom baby!! xD
Yes!!
yup yup yup!! the LOL DER ABC camp..
u see..
LOL : Live Out Loud(camp theme)
DER : Dusun Eco Resort(the place)
ABC : Adventure Boot Camp..(sort of like a army camp) :)
cool rite?i noe!! ^^
i had so much fun..n i've learn so much!!
credit to all the awesome
ALPHA members.. :)
Sargent : Bobo..
Corporal : Isaac..
Private : Christopher..a.k.a..Chan Chan.. x)
Private : Wee Chung..a.k.a..Wee Wee.. x)
Private : Lyn..a.k.a..Lyn Lyn.. x)
Private : Rachel Lum..a.k.a..Lum Lum.. x)
i'm so proud of my group!!
n i love everyone of them!!
we're so cooperative..n together..u noe wat i mean? :)
n we start of being the last group bass on our scores..
n at the end of the day..we got Second Place..
it was just shocky..^^
but what so ever..we're all winner.. :)

well,overall everything was just fantastic..

had loads of fun.. :)

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i was actually only half way typing this post..

n stop to continues tmr..

then i went to check on other peoples blog..

n randomly..i got the feeling to blog again..

so here i am..^^ n is already 2:30am..

n feeling funny..hungry a lil..dizzy-ness in the head..

n wanting to finish all the Christmas card on time!!

o guess wat? i'm panicking for the results that is coming out this week..

i'm so not ready!!i want more holiday!!DUH!!who wont wan it..

well,technically feels really empty not going for a long vacation on a super long holiday like after pmr..u'll have like 3months of nothing to do but slack around n lay around like a lazy fat cat holiday..

which starts of really boring n always wonder when will skol reopen..

but when is close to skol reopen..u'll turn back n miss holiday..

i guess i'm just really use to slacking around the house..

doing nothing..n spending my time like a grandma..

everything will be done slowly..

or maybe is just me that is missing holidays..owhwell.. :)

n i have totally no idea why the gap so big between one sentence n the other..

silly me.. :P

ok moving on to my post..i have so much to blog about..

n pic to share..^^

u noe wat?i realize every single day passes..there will be a moment of me and my future SLR..i'm really in to photography now days..n it will always b!!i just love it.. :)

it must be the addiction from camp!! Sophia SLR..

in camp i was holding her SLR like a professional..haha..acting je..

haha..syok sendiri-ing also..

but i did take pic of the skyline at DUR(Dusun Eco Resort a.k.a camp site)..n it looks really awesome.. :)

n some other things..is actually not as hard as i tot it will be..to use it..
one single touch of it..n i'm already falling in love.. :)
o look no more gap all of the sudden..
funny..n weird..==.
owhwell, which ever..i wan a SLR badly..
n a laptop to come in handy.. :)
i'm so greedy.. xP
haha..ok..when skol reopens..i'm gonna start saving money hard core style!! :)
o yea..i got one ques that i've been thinking about alot..
next year as everybody in the world knows is 2010..rite?
n people usually write the date like..
example : 27.11.09
but next year it will be 10 at the end..which looks like this..
example : 27.11.10
doesn't it seem weird to u?
27.11.10?
ok maybe is just me again..owhwell.. :)
where was i?

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well,in camp..i guess the only thing i hate about it is that..
i have to force to sleep eat live everything with BUGS!!
which i am must phobia from!!
i hate BUGS..is just gross..

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wow..was just editing the pic..
n took a quick glance at the clock..
is 4:10am already..
is getting early..n i guess i should go n hit the sheets now..
nits.. :)
will continue tomorrow..so don forget to stay tune.. :)

time will make it better.. :)

aww!! i'm so sry..
my blog seem so dead now days..
ok..will try to make it alive again..
anyway,is 2.31am already!!
n i promise my eyes to slp early everynite for the sake of those bags..
owhwell.. =/
i'm still picnik-ing..is getting addictive..no idea why..
my head is spinning again..calling out for more blood!!
lately..so many things is happening around me..
n some r really really awesome n memorable..
n some r those that u just goes to bed everynite n think to yrself..
wishing that day wouldn't come..n try all yr best to stay strong n make it through..
well, bad times sure is slow walking..
n the good ones just flowing by like the water falls every sec..
i guess i'll jus update a REAL post tmr..
i'm too tired to think..
n the pic r still in process.. :)
got lots to show u..
pic pic pic.. :) is so easy to blog with them hanging around.. :)
nites earth.. ^^

crying is not an answer..but a reason..

My parents knew u, even before when i was born..
and when i finally arrive into this typical world..
you were the first one who called out my name..
you were the reason why people address me as 'Denise' for 15years..
if it wasn't for you..my name wouldn't be 'Denise'..
in fact..people will address me as 'Dory'..what a age name to be called..
but you were there..so things were diff..

As time passes..you were always there,By My Side..
Carrying me when i couldn't Walk....
n Held my hand n walk with me so i wouldn't Fall..
when i Cried..you Dry my tears..
Telling me, it will be Ok..n Draw a smile on my face..
from what i could think of..when i look back..
It seems like..i can only remember all the awesome memories n times we had n spend together..

u make me smile as i smile back gladly till my eye can only be seen in a straight line..
u make me laugh as i laugh back crazily n tears of joy follows behind..
u make me feel safe as i stay close to u every single time..
u make me feel the excitement build up like I'm going for a holiday when I'm on my way to see u..

I remember..there was a time..
u were in a surgery..n i was home..
praying n crying my heart out..
praying that u would get through this..
n finally..the surgery was done..n u were fine..
but not well..
u were still ill..n u wanted to gave up..
because there was too much pain..
i know u couldn't take it..

I really didn't know what to do..
all i do was just cry my eyes out..
n soon as i realize crying isn't gonna bring yr hopes up..
i begin to text u..n try to remind u of what u have promised me..
n hoping u will think it over..n realize there is still unfinished business..
one of the promise was u said u will recover as soon as u can n bring me to Belgium with u..
n only the both of us..
n that so happen..it somehow bring yr hopes up again..
u have no idea how relief i was to hear from u..
that u will continue fight back those virus in u..
n u haven forget yr promise..

But the virus was too strong..
n u were in the worst stage for cancer..
but u were stronger then anybody..inside n out..
n i have really high hopes for u..
but don worry..u didn't let me down.. :)

Today i went to visit u once more..i was really early..
as i walk near to yr side..dadi was holding my hand..
n i could sense..his touch..was telling me to be prepare..
n i was..ready to see u once again..n it maybe the last I'll ever do..
as i lay my eye on u..u look different..
maybe u wouldn't smiling..yea..maybe..
but still,u look very beautiful to me..
i really wish..n pray..that i could see u smile..
one last time..I'm not asking for more..maybe for just a second..
just one very last time..just see u smile before u go..
but i know..that is not gonna happen in reality..
n maybe..after i leave this place..i could only see u in my dreams..
yea..that could happen..

Surprisingly, i didn't cry..or tears..when i see u today..
but i was glad to see u..i felt safe n warm..
being close to u again..
u might not be able to speak to me..
or u might not lay yr eyes on me again..
but i know..u're looking after me..
n u're speaking to me through my tots..
so i will just close my eye n try to hear your voice again..

N from the day u left this world to heaven..
i've been praying..hard..to see u in my dreams..
n it didn't happen..
well,guess what? I'm just gonna try harder each time..
each nite before i go to bed..I'm not giving up..
until i see u again..n that's a guaranty..

U were always the female version of hero in my life..
n u have always been the greatest godmother anyone could ever have..
n i'm really really lucky to be yr godchild..
n to be loved by u..

Well,i just receive my bday present form u today..
i guess yr friend from outstation just got back or something..
the give is amazing..i really love it..
I'm wearing the cross n diamond necklace u gave me before..
it looks really good on me..because u're the one who pick it out for me..

N i also want u to know that..
for all the coming n following days..
i know my tears might visit again..
but i want u to know that those tears..
will b tears of joy..
i'm just really glad that u wouldn't have to suffer anymore..
wouldn't have to feel pain anymore..
wouldn't have to be sad anymore..
n wouldn't have to worry about anything anymore..
because now..u're at a place which is full of peace n happiness..
n living a dream..

I will treasure every memory..
n every single thing u left behind for me..
till the day i see u again..

n u will always be remembered..
n remembered by me..forever n always..n that's another guaranty..

remember..
I love u.. &

I'll miss you!! :)

just from
with love &
yrs sincerely
yr godchild,Denise.. ♥
14 of dec let this day b remembered..

i think i'm in love.. :)

First i wanna tell a special someone..

Happy One Month Babe..♥ u much.. :)

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n secondly..
i think i'm in love..no.. :)
not with u..
but with this..

http://herstorys101.blogspot.com/2009/10/good-nite.html
view this!! is one of my blog post..
i said i wanted to see a heart shaped cloud like this one day..
n guess wat!!!!!!! i did!!!!!!! the pic on the right!!!!!!!!
i took it!!!!!!!!!! yes!!!!!!!!!! me!!!!!!!!!!!!!
yay!!!!!!!!!!!! i'm so happy now!!!!!!
i noe is not as nice as the left one but still..
u can still see the heart shape rite? ok i'm carzy.....
but i'm just really happy!!! ^^
that i get to see it with my own eyes..n snap a pic of it!!!!!!
yay me!!!!! ^^
ok..i was actually in the car..waiting for my parents..
den when i look outside the window..
Boom!!
there it is!! :)
haha..this is totally my fav!!!!!!! ^^
hehe..i have more to show u..
was in de car on my way to my cousin wedding.. :)
u make the sun come out.. o boy..u're my baby baby baby baby love.....^^
sound familiar?

but anyway..really happy for my cousin brother..
when i was sitting quitly at his wedding dinner..
is just funny that i'm there..
maybe is because when we were all still really young..
i remember me my brother n him..
use to hang out alot..jus sit around..n random topic starts to pop.. :)
i miss those time with him..
n now his married..times really do flys..
not sometime!! all the time..
cant believe i'm gonna b 16next year!!
is not a bad thing to grow up but it sure scares u sometimes..
having all the pressure on responsibility..
haha..u never noe..the next morning u woke up getting married yrself.. xD
ok..here is some pic i took that night/day.. ^^
dinner..i tell u ah!!
the place is so freaky!!n only me n my mum went dat nite..
the carpark!! the mall!! is so old!! n just EWW..
IT WILL FREAK U OUT!!
ok..jo say is called Bintang?
ok wtv is freaky..don go der..u'll hav nitemare at nite..

Chandelier..Pretty..^^

but this is cool..^^

wanna sing with me?
Nah.. :D

his dad is an amazing singer..
so that nite someone actually sign up for him to go sing a song..
how cute..look at his reaction..^^
(weird grandma speaking)
look at him all grown up.. :D
he looks good tho..handsome..DUH!! is his wedding..==.

mum thinks she's feeding a pig..==.
look!!nearly half of the fish!!

o yea!! do u noe everytime someone gets married..
they have this long red firecracker thingy..

ok so..at first this dog was barking like nobody business..
n when the firecracker was done with its awfully loud singing..
everyone felt a sudden silent..
so we look over to the dog..
n he was shaking!! xD
it was so funny!! everyone was LOLX-ing.. xD
but wtv it is..is a loyal dog..^^

well,we were all eating out..
no diff as picnic..^^
it was really nice n windy with all the tall trees standing by..^^
n is so much better den eating under the red cover thingy..
sry no idea wat izzit called.. :P

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n one more thing!! YOUTH CAMP is just around the corner!!
i cant wait to see everyone in church!!
miss them so much!!
o yea!!n the camp is called..
LOL = Live Out Loud..^^
i cant wait!! i'm actually using joanna mum laptop..
i was here since last nite..n gonna follow her car to chruch this wed.. :)
n back home this sunday..
haha..just glad i'm not home for one whole week..
is such a waste of time staying at home with nothing to do..
but just surf the net eat n slp..==
u'll feel seriouly really lifeless..
but not anymore for me!!
so gonna enjoy this one week!! :)
n will be updating loads more after i return from camp.. :)
so don ciu readers go away..
n stay ton for more..^^

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haha..random pic of the day..(my contact lense case) xP
someone told me it look like donuts.. :)
anyway..this is all..
have a awesome n great week ahead eveybody.. :)

i love joanna oon shu mei :)

04.12.09..getting rusty.. xP

feel like is been years since i last update my blog..

n feeling kinda rusty..
well, at least i have a title to blog abt.. XP
anyway..first thing first..
i think i'm starting to get Gothic..
no..i'm not changing my style..or my life style..
jus a corner of my mind thinks Gothic is somehow getting somewhere..
i mean i think the gals/guys looks kinda..Good? xP
but seriously!! look at their make up..n costume..
it look awesome(to me)..
haha..ok..here is some pic of them..n is also de few i pick out as highlights..
this was the first Gothic pic i've since..wat ca think? :)

shes beautiful..

ok this looks abit lala..but..it has a meaning to leaving me alone
or a really sad soul..
or a broken/soul mayb? =D

i only like de tat.. xD

ok i'm done Gothic-ing..
gonna make way for some real post.. xP

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o yea did i mention i had western for 2-3 weeks straight..
n i can really get use to it..
Love Western!! ^^
if u're a fan like me as well..
u should really go try out Station1..is a really nice place to chill n pick yr meals..
portion is not dat big or small ether..
is a promise to a happy tummy.. :)

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Weiser had his bath that day..
n was manja-ing all the way..giving me his puppy eye..
couldn't seem to resist when he does that..
so i jus lay him back..n give him a back massage.. xD
n took a few pic.. :)
don mind my foot.. xP
didnt wan his head to touch the ground tho..=/

haha..u act cute ah..xP (pikabu)

sry wat a blur pic..but he still looks cute.. :) love u sweetheart..♥

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that day asl meeting for orientation n leadership camp..
only James, kai n me make it..
but there was so many crazy LOLX..
but before i get to that..just look at the sunrise.. :)
snap snap..

was on my way to mcd..n it caughted my eye..
was trying to draw the knight..n it turns out like this..
wat!!i'm not any good at drawing alrite.. xP
but i already drew one last nite..
hope it will be the one that turns out on orientation..=P
after mcd..we went to Starbucks to borrow their wifi..
well, of cause if u wanna use their wifi..u have to get a drink or something..
so at first James TOT three of us will b sharing a drink..as in three of us will pay as well..
n because of that he hand me the $$ to get the drink..
den he n kai went upstairs..wat gentlemen..leaving me alone downstairs to get the drink..
owhwell..i'm tough!! XP
ok..when i got hold of the drink..i make my way upstairs to look for them..
hand James HIS drink..
after he got hold of his drink he start asking for ''the share''..

we told him we aren't sharing the drink with him..
he got insane n start asking me n kai to pay him bac..get the pic?
xD..
n one more thing..i was using the laptop to search for some logo..
this porn website suddenly pop out..
n both of those monkeys start laughing their butts out..==
IT WASN'T ME ALRITE!!GOSH!!IT JUST POP OUT,OUT OF NO WHERE!!
IT WASN'T ME!!WAT LAH U GUYS!!T.T

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gosh!!James n kai had a really good laugh..bully je..T.T
anyway i'm going to YOUTH CAMP next week!! :)
is gonna be awesome..i guess.. xP
will b away for a few days..so mayb this is gonna be my last post till i return from camp.. xD
ok i'm just gonna end this post with this cute pic i just found online.. :)
haha..have a great week ahead everybody.. :)

so sick of being cage in..

my parents just couldn't give me enough of caging in..

so sick of it..
if running away is as easy as snapping yr fingers..
i would do it..